20 May 2008

The Waterhorse

Steve came out today and we had SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!!!!!
I met him at the train station, and then we walked down to the lake and goofed off. We came back to the school and then we just hung out and watched random shit online and watched some movies and what not. I always have a good time with that kid. He's definitely one of my besties. For sho for sho.
Well I've got some work homework to finish, so peace out.

Love.

18 May 2008

Separating People From The Squares Like A Nicotine Patch

I get half off at Lush.
Who's everybody's new best friend? For reals.

This week is gonna be crazy busy, but I'm mega excited about it.
Lots of good things going on. Lots of visits and what not. Lots of work. LOTS OF WORK.
But that's okay, because that also means lots of monies. Which you can never have too much of.

Bleh, well I'm mega tired. So peace out.

Love.

17 May 2008

"Mm, You Look Like A Baby"

Alright, plan is to be in bed within the hour, and I still have a few things to do.
And I still have all of my Lush homework to do. Bleh, that's not gonna happen. I'll just have to get up early[ish].
Omg though, that job is AMAZING!!!!!!!!
Basically I hang out at Lush for a few hours. Not such a bad gig right?
The only thing is, it's a part time job, and this week I'm working 30 hours, but I think quite a few of those are training. According to my binder, I have eight training shifts. Craziness, no?
Next week I only have 20 hours though. But yay monies!!!!!
I'm excited. Well I've still got things to do.
I feel like I've got more to say, but I'm too tired to remember.

Love.

16 May 2008

All The Kids Are Rioting

WOOT WOOT, I got the job at Lush!
I start tomorrow, and yes I found out last night. Craziness.
Speaking of craziness... last night was so much. I finally met my Alex Love's boyfriend and he definitely has my seal of approval. Two thumbs, way up.
But yes, I got the job which is why I'm back at school, and now Jessy is on her way out here so I'm excited. I just don't know when I'm going to stop going. I feel like I never stop going, but I don't mind it. It all keeps me busy and keeps my mind away from other things.
But yes, this was the only free minute I had, so update woop woop.

Love.

15 May 2008

This Isn't Goodnight This Is Goodbye

Okay, probably the only time I have to update today is now. I have to clean and do the dishes [oh but Marissa didn't you JUST clean, like two days ago? Why yes, I did, but my roommate apparently could care less]. Ugh I have no energy, I think I'm just going to make multiple pots of coffee and that will be that. I need something to get me motivated. Sup caffeine?
Also, I have to figure out when I'm heading to DeKalb today. "The Office" finale is tonight and Kelly is probably going to want me here to watch it. But I'm also going to see Alex tonight. AND Mal and I are supposed to get together at some point tonight. Hmm... decisions, decisions. I guess Kelly won't really care if I'm not here. She hasn't been here to watch it the past three weeks, so what will make it different this week? She'll probably have sorority stuff.
Ugh I have such a stomach ache today since I ate SO MUCH yesterday. Bleh, I don't even want to think about food. AT ALL.
Alright, alright, I'm going to start cleaning, I'm going to start cleaning...

Love.

14 May 2008

Let It Snow Let It Snow Let It Snow

JESSY CAME OUT TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was so much fun. We did a lot of walking and such.
It was good to see her again.

Tomorrow I'm going to see my Alex love. I'm tres tres excited! This week is going to be busy but that's fine. I'd write more but I'm mega tired. Better update tomorrow.

Love.

13 May 2008

You're My E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G

I have my call back for Lush today, at 4. I'm really debating showering now or later. After already being out in public unwashed, it's a tough call. Blehhhhh I feel like I have more to do today than I probably actually do. I definitely have to mail my old phone back... [Yeah still haven't done that, I keep forgetting].

I'm really going back and forth with this whole going home and commuting to work this summer or staying in the city. I would just rather make sure I can afford it. I guess I'll find out after today. If they hire me as part time, even though I asked for full time, I plan on getting a second job. I mean I wouldn't give up working there for anything if they'll have me. And I hear they give nice bonuses sometimes. And that just sounds fantastic.

I don't know, I've been thinking of other ways to get money. It's rough. I really don't know how
kids next year plan on going to school full time, and then paying for a place in Lincoln Park, I don't care how many people you're living with. Especially since most of these people have no desire to get a job. I guess that happens sometimes.

I've also been thinking about looking into film once I come back to school. Kelly was saying I could do really well at it. My issue is [I've said it before, and I'll say it again] I can't necessarily see myself tied down to one thing for the rest of my life. I could definitely be a writer, because writing is something that allows for leisure, and when inspiration strikes. But like one constant job? No thank you. I've been thinking about a lot of things. Like when I come back, I can double major in like film and English. I've also been wondering if I should take classes on Journalism, possibly. I'm more interested in Fiction, except if I become a travel writer, I may been my degree in Journalism, hmm...something to look into I guess. I've also been reading up on Cosmetology and have talked to some people that took it in high school. Except I'm not so much interested in hair as I am makeup. Who knows? I can be extremely wishy washy. I'm really looking forward to be able to figure a lot of this out over the next year. Granted I still have about a month of school left. But I've felt extremely motivated lately. I finally feel like I'm regaining control in my life.

It's been really hard finding an apartment lately, but I'm confident that I'll find a decent one that I can afford. And honestly, I don't mind if they're small, but I require a decent sized kitchen. The one I have now isn't so bad, because it's open, but a lot of these are so cramped! I'm typically not claustrophobic, but just looking at some of these makes me hyperventilate. This one place I found, I'm thinking about getting the convertible instead of the one bedroom, seems perfect. It's downtown on Ohio, right by Lake Shore Drive, so it has a great view. My biggest issue is that it says it has a balcony, but I can't find one in the pictures, um hi, I'm a smoker. Oh well I guess if I go look at it, I'll see. There's a few places I saw. We shall see. The other issue with said place is that it is $$$$$$$. I mean I probably could afford it [and just live without cable or internet] but I would not have a lot of excess cash at the end of the month. But my family said they would help me out. But they probably wouldn't be able to help out too much. Gah! It's so hard being a big girl! I kind of want a big girl job, but I don't really know how to go about that, especially since I'm not done with school yet. In fact, I'm taking next year off.

I cleaned soooooooo much yesterday, I didn't get to the bedroom yet, or finish organizing my desk, or do the dishes, but I did clean the bathroom, and clean the dining/living area. So I'm quite proud of that. My goal for the day is to finish cleaning, take the garbage out, and do at least at least a few loads of laundry. I'm nervous about this trial run at Lush, so I guess this is all entirely possible. [I'm not a stress eater, I'm a stress cleaner]. I've also got a lot to plan, now that everyone is coming home, everyone wants to visit, I'm not quite sure how this is going to work if I get the job, but we shall see.

I feel like that's my mantra lately "We shall see." It always seems quite applicable to my life lately.

Anywho, Jessy is coming out tomorrow FINALLY. I think I'm going to go stay with Liss for a few days this weekend, like Friday to Monday or something. I know she could use the company right now. And I would really like to see Alex soon. Like real soon. I mean I have all of this gluten free food, and no Celiac to eat it. And she has my favorite Lush stuff. And we still have many many movie marathons to have. And I guess Kevin wants to come out not this weekend but next weekend.

Possibly my longest post ever.
Congrats if you have made it this far.
Without skimming.

Love.

11 May 2008

Is That A Fact?

Happy Mother's Day all.
I hope everyone called their mothers today.
Everyone should be grateful to have them around.

This weekend was INSANITY.

Massive drunken foolishness Friday and it was so much fun.
I spent most of Saturday with Kristy then I came back and just sort of chilled. It was nice.
Today I woke up late, got ready, cleaned the bathroom [ick] and then SAW MY LISSFACE!!!!!!!
She came over, we talked, then went to Argo and talked, then went and saw Shan. It was so great. I've missed her a lot. And I'm really glad she's finally back.

Well I'm beyond the valley of exhaustion and have to get ready for bed.

Love.

09 May 2008

I Can Charm Them All

Alright so VERY busy day today.
I was mega busy yesterday so I didn't get to update, and this is the only time I have today.

Yesterday I never stopped moving.
At 11 I had to shower and what not, then at 1 I met up with Michelle [student center, mail, bank, MetroPark, Ulta, Jimmy John's, Sephora, Victoria's Secret] after I got back Becky wanted to go look at an apartment, then I had to henna my hair [which didn't even work, I think I'll have to leave it on longer next time] and then Kelly got home and I dyed her hair, then she wanted to try on our outfits for tonight and then I was exhausted and completely crashed.

Today is even more ridiculous, this is the only downtime I have. I have A LOT of cleaning to do, then I have to get ready, then job interview, then shower and what not, and then I have to head to the party. There's actually a lot more I have to do today, I would just be here all day typing it all out. Ughhhhhhhhh...

I'm really excited to see Steve tonight though, we've got plans, let me tell you...
Hahahaha.

I don't know if I'll have time to update again this weekend, but I'll try.

Love.

06 May 2008

Running on Bravado

It's such a beautiful day outside!
Michelle and I are going for a walk to Ulta in a little over an hour. I think it will be fun, I've never not had a good time on our walks. Even when I feel like I'll never be okay, going on walks with her always help.
I've actually gotten a lot done today too. Go me. I've got a busy weekend ahead of me, and an even busier weekend in the distance. But this weekend is going to be amazing. Except maybe Friday... We'll see I suppose.
I've just had so much going on, I feel like I'm finally getting back in control. It's a euphoric feeling. And apartment hunting is SOOOOOOOOOOOOON!! I cannot wait. And I'm completely available to go wherever in the city I choose, which is good.
I feel like today is going by so slowly. I just want it to be 3, oh shit I'm going to miss the Golden Girls. Oh well I'm sure I've seen those episodes like a million times at least.

Love.

05 May 2008

This Girl Will Always Find Her Way

Weekend please?

Party on Friday.
Jessy on Saturday.
Liss on Sunday.

Again, weekend please.

My mom came out yesterday and we went out, got lunch, shopped, talked. I got lots of new cute clothes. And I may have mentioned this already, but my other Bloc Party shirt FINALLY came. And I'm about to start laundry so I'll actually have clean clothes. Woot clothes.

I finally talked to Jessy about everything last night, we were on the phone for an hour and a half and she brought up a lot of really good points. Michelle, my mother, my father, and Jessy = geniuses. Truly.

I can't wait to talk to/see Liss. Oh I've missed her so. She's been kind of out of the loop on a lot of things, but not for long. And I win out over her mom, and Shan. Victory.

I'm finally feeling a bit more normal. The waves aren't as bad. I said right on.

Oh, and my boo called me today, then subsequently hung up on me, not on purpose, but still.

Love.

03 May 2008

If You Feel A Little Left Behind

Second Bloc Party shirt came today.
Victory.

Had breakfast with Becky.
Lunch with Amanda and Jen.
Mom's coming out tomorrow.

02 May 2008

Two More Years

In two more years, my sweetheart, we will see another view
such longing for the past for such completion
What was once golden has now turned a shade of grey
I've become crueler in your presence

They say: 'be brave, there's a right way and a wrong way'
This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever

Two more years, there's only two more years
Two more years, there's only two more years
Two more years so hold on

You've cried enough this lifetime, my beloved polar bear
Tears to fill a sea to drown a beacon
To start anew all over, remove those scars from your arms
To start anew all over more enlightened

I know, my love, this is not the only story you can tell
This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever

Two more years...

You don't need to find answers for questions never asked of you
You don't need to find answers

dead weights and balloons
drag me to you
dead weights and balloons
to sleep in your arms
i've become crueler since i met you
ive become rougher, this world is killing me

we cover our lies with handshakes and smiles
we try to remember our alibis
we tell lies to our parents he hide in their rooms
we bury our secrets in the garden
of course we could never make this love last
i said of course we could never make this love last
the only love we know is love for ourselves
we bury our secrets in the garden