Is That A Fact?

Happy Mother's Day all.
I hope everyone called their mothers today.
Everyone should be grateful to have them around.

This weekend was INSANITY.

Massive drunken foolishness Friday and it was so much fun.
I spent most of Saturday with Kristy then I came back and just sort of chilled. It was nice.
Today I woke up late, got ready, cleaned the bathroom [ick] and then SAW MY LISSFACE!!!!!!!
She came over, we talked, then went to Argo and talked, then went and saw Shan. It was so great. I've missed her a lot. And I'm really glad she's finally back.

Well I'm beyond the valley of exhaustion and have to get ready for bed.

Love.

I Can Charm Them All

Alright so VERY busy day today.
I was mega busy yesterday so I didn't get to update, and this is the only time I have today.

Yesterday I never stopped moving.
At 11 I had to shower and what not, then at 1 I met up with Michelle [student center, mail, bank, MetroPark, Ulta, Jimmy John's, Sephora, Victoria's Secret] after I got back Becky wanted to go look at an apartment, then I had to henna my hair [which didn't even work, I think I'll have to leave it on longer next time] and then Kelly got home and I dyed her hair, then she wanted to try on our outfits for tonight and then I was exhausted and completely crashed.

Today is even more ridiculous, this is the only downtime I have. I have A LOT of cleaning to do, then I have to get ready, then job interview, then shower and what not, and then I have to head to the party. There's actually a lot more I have to do today, I would just be here all day typing it all out. Ughhhhhhhhh...

I'm really excited to see Steve tonight though, we've got plans, let me tell you...
Hahahaha.

I don't know if I'll have time to update again this weekend, but I'll try.

Love.

Running on Bravado

It's such a beautiful day outside!
Michelle and I are going for a walk to Ulta in a little over an hour. I think it will be fun, I've never not had a good time on our walks. Even when I feel like I'll never be okay, going on walks with her always help.
I've actually gotten a lot done today too. Go me. I've got a busy weekend ahead of me, and an even busier weekend in the distance. But this weekend is going to be amazing. Except maybe Friday... We'll see I suppose.
I've just had so much going on, I feel like I'm finally getting back in control. It's a euphoric feeling. And apartment hunting is SOOOOOOOOOOOOON!! I cannot wait. And I'm completely available to go wherever in the city I choose, which is good.
I feel like today is going by so slowly. I just want it to be 3, oh shit I'm going to miss the Golden Girls. Oh well I'm sure I've seen those episodes like a million times at least.

Love.

This Girl Will Always Find Her Way

Weekend please?

Party on Friday.
Jessy on Saturday.
Liss on Sunday.

Again, weekend please.

My mom came out yesterday and we went out, got lunch, shopped, talked. I got lots of new cute clothes. And I may have mentioned this already, but my other Bloc Party shirt FINALLY came. And I'm about to start laundry so I'll actually have clean clothes. Woot clothes.

I finally talked to Jessy about everything last night, we were on the phone for an hour and a half and she brought up a lot of really good points. Michelle, my mother, my father, and Jessy = geniuses. Truly.

I can't wait to talk to/see Liss. Oh I've missed her so. She's been kind of out of the loop on a lot of things, but not for long. And I win out over her mom, and Shan. Victory.

I'm finally feeling a bit more normal. The waves aren't as bad. I said right on.

Oh, and my boo called me today, then subsequently hung up on me, not on purpose, but still.

Love.

If You Feel A Little Left Behind

Second Bloc Party shirt came today.
Victory.

Had breakfast with Becky.
Lunch with Amanda and Jen.
Mom's coming out tomorrow.

Two More Years

In two more years, my sweetheart, we will see another view
such longing for the past for such completion
What was once golden has now turned a shade of grey
I've become crueler in your presence

They say: 'be brave, there's a right way and a wrong way'
This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever

Two more years, there's only two more years
Two more years, there's only two more years
Two more years so hold on

You've cried enough this lifetime, my beloved polar bear
Tears to fill a sea to drown a beacon
To start anew all over, remove those scars from your arms
To start anew all over more enlightened

I know, my love, this is not the only story you can tell
This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever

Two more years...

You don't need to find answers for questions never asked of you
You don't need to find answers

dead weights and balloons
drag me to you
dead weights and balloons
to sleep in your arms
i've become crueler since i met you
ive become rougher, this world is killing me

we cover our lies with handshakes and smiles
we try to remember our alibis
we tell lies to our parents he hide in their rooms
we bury our secrets in the garden
of course we could never make this love last
i said of course we could never make this love last
the only love we know is love for ourselves
we bury our secrets in the garden

You Don't Need To Find Answers For Questions Never Asked Of You

That is probably one of my absolute favorite lyrics from a Bloc Party song [and I've got a lot].
But I think that's how I am about a lot of things. I don't understand why people go looking for answers all of the time. If there is no question, why bother seeking out an answer? I do it sometimes, I look for answers within non-existent questions. I don't know, just an observation. Nothing specific, I've just been thinking about it a lot. Maybe I'll get a tattoo for it. Haha.
So this weekend has been so nice and relaxing. You have no idea. I've just hung out, watched movies, done homework. I really couldn't ask for anything more. Sometimes it's nice to just take a break like that.
I really don't have too much to say today, granted it's only like 4.30, but hopefully I'll have a real update or something tomorrow.
There's always something going on with me, who am I kidding? Haha.

Love.

There Is A Wall That Runs Right Through Me

It's been a while, I know, I had some things to figure out. And I did, for the most part. I'm not as bitter as I was.
What fixed it was Tuesday.
Tuesday Michelle and I went out, on one of our walks, and I decided to surprise her with Swirlz. Well we went, then decided we wanted to keep walking, and ended up at Oz Park, which turned into us wanting to go to the beach. We walked for a while then found this park by the Lincoln Park Zoo and played there for a while, then we went to the Zoo, and then walked to the beach.
There was a moment there where I felt like everything was perfect. I've never really felt that way before, I was so relaxed and calm. I was so content with everything.
After we kept walking, and walked along Michigan Avenue on the hunt for a Panera, then we went to the MCA Store, and I found the most amazing thing in the whole world. We couldn't find a Panera over there, so we got on the El, and found the one over by the train station. We came back, and it really was the perfect ending to a perfect day. Honestly, it was exactly what I needed, and it felt so good.
Getting back to DePaul kind of sucked. I'm really sort of over this place. I don't know, I require change, and the thought of being here three more years really makes me nervous. And kind of sick to my stomach. Don't get me wrong, it's a great school, but... I'm just sort of over the area. I know this campus front and back, I'd rather have something different.
But that's a whole other issue.
I'm hoping to get my tattoo soon, so hopefully I'll have pictures of that within the next week or so.
I'm just so obnoxiously optimistic today, thank goodness no one is here!
I don't know, I just woke up this morning feeling so good about everything. Again, not really something I can explain. I can never really explain myself, but it's not really a fault. At least, I don't think so.
I am distancing myself from certain things which helps, I finally feel like I know what I want in my life, which is an amazing feeling.
Well I think it's time to dance around like an idiot in my rooms to get rid of some excess energy.

Love.